since starting my third trimester, i've started having these dreams that feel like they're really happening, but i'm never confused about the fact that it's only a dream.
they started off with... well... "wet dreams" EWW! i don't even like calling them that. i'd rather say dreams that end with an orgasm?.... idk... these dreams were kind of fun because i haven't had one in FOREVER and they're always about my love who's actually lying right next to me so that's kinda funny.
anyhooo... this dream last night freaked me out. i dreamed that i was sitting on my bed (but not at my real house) and talking to my sister and my mom. i got up to, idk, get something to drink, and my sister says, in the most childish way "mom! cquel peed on herself!" wtf?!?! so, it wasn't pee, it was kinda bloody but not blood and we realized that i was still dripping because DING DING DING! my water had broken. now, i'm only 7 months so that freaked me out to no end. instead of knowing exactly what to do, we kind of squealed and hopped around in a panic and then came the tears... "i'm not ready yet! my house isn't ready yet!" i cried. then, while my mom and sister tried to get in contact with my husband, i decided to feel the area and felt, what i figured was, the top of the baby's head.... more panic, more crying and an honest attempt to suck it back in... but no pain. i could feel that the baby was coming, but it felt (and pardon the grossness of this) like when ur pulling a tampon out. like, i could definitely feel it, but it didn't hurt at all. so yea, the dream ended there. no baby, not even a trip to the hospital....
i took from this that i'm totally spazzing out about the fact that i don't have any room in my house for a new baby. my husband tells me nonsense like "don't worry so much" and "we have plenty of room" but i'm not an idiot.... we have no room for a baby and what comes with it. AAAAAAHHHH!!! i'm way to frustrated about this!
